4.14.2009

The best only breathe

I take you in. 
Through  a nostril, through a tear duct.
Through my throat - I laugh in gusts.

This is all nonsense. I feel all nonsense. I cry to be productive and I think that I it isn't true. I think that I should just exist more. I think that I should just try to breathe more. I think that I get so impatient that I forget about what I am trying to do here. Which is to love to love to love to love. 

stories:::::::

I am under a table. sneaking glances at the party going. I will find a way. I will figure it out. 

I had a wonderful moment today!! I went to a costume fitting for a play that I will be in soon, and I met someone that I will be sharing a lot of stage with. He seemed so wonderful, but I fear he is a bit wary of me. And he should! Anyways, he also seems a few years my senior and very serious. Not overly serious, but he definitely gets the job done on time. I just want to learn and share. Does that seem like too much to say in the first talk? Probably not. blah blah blah move on....

Feeling much better. Weeks of Bronchial something or other slowly wearing off. 

night. I am falling asleep. dream dream dream dream dream. I cry for all of these dreams to come true. gosh. I am all it up inside. like a bride. come to me world. 

2 comments:

Jane Ashe said...

You will enjoy so much greatness.
I rejoice for you. Truly.
Ugh...don't leave.

Lila-Blu said...

isn't it funny...we go go go go go. and then we realize that we just want to hold onto these moments for just a bit more.

we had a talk...I don't know if you remember. so let me say it again...

I so much want good things for you.

I generally want good things for people.

but more than most for you.

dream darling boy. dream big. and then get up and chase them.