Getting Back Into a Cocoon

I suppose honesty, as always, can be my best friend.

It will support me in a fault, it will keep my vision clear. No secrets.

Pardon me already for my words, I have been afraid, as usual, of speaking my mind. I never really get the courage for most things. Decisions. Opinions. Emotions. It gets me in TERRIBLE situations. I hurt people, I let people down, I leave people stranded. Lack of courage? I don't know. I don't. Not sure, no.

I just need to prioritize. Get in the me-cocoon. It's not selfish. Well, perhaps it is the positive side of the coin. Respect and patience for the self. I need to breathe and decide by my own.

Mantra:

IT CAN HURT YOUR BODY TO TELL YOUR PERSONAL TRUTH.

IT NEVER HURTS YOUR SOUL TO TELL YOUR PERSONAL TRUTH.

EMBARRASSMENT, AWKWARDNESS, REJECTION, DISSOCIATION,

AND REGRET ARE NOT STRONG ENOUGH REASONS TO STOP BEING

YOU.

LOVE THE UNCOMFORTABLE BEAST THAT YOU ARE.

THEN YOU CAN RELAX.

I keep feeling a little poor in my skin. I just need to believe that I have what it takes.

I have always felt as though the platitudes that are spoken most are the easiest to write off. But they are still there. Smiling.

"You just have to put your mind to it!"

The power of positive thinking. I made a latte today and I noticed that the foam was exceptionally smooth and luxurious. I decided to man up and I told my customer that the latte he was about to drink could very well be the best latte he had ever witnessed. Whether this was true or not, he grew in anticipation and upon drinking the latte, he had that moment that Bill Murray has in "What about Bob?" My customer gasped and may have had a religious experience; he even returned later in the day simply to remark how good his latte was.

When you point something out to yourself, you tend to think on it. When riding a bike, if you stare at a stick on the ground, you are more likely to ride towards it, maybe hit it. ack, tired. more later. oooo